So. I vanished again.

I'm sorry to say this isn't a journal to announce another breif return. It's a journal to give all of you who've been awaiting more SPAM, more pin ups, more art in general an explaination. I kinda owe you all one.

I haven't been honest with you over the past few months- not entirely, at least. I HAVE had massive laptop issues and internet failutres, that's true at least. However... in reality, I really could have done more drawing. Far far more drawing, because as some of you may know, I don't draw digitally. I draw EVERYTHING to paper first, then scan it in.

I've always had the eternal curse of the artist and the comedian- depression. Most of the time I manage pretty okay, I have melodramatic Rarity style moments, then get over it in a few hours. But lately it's gotten a lot worse.  I can't draw. I hate everything I put to paper. Not just a little. I LOATHE it. I don't look the way I want due to a number of circumstances, mostly stemming from a sit down shift working job with ridiculous "presentation" rules enforced despite the fact I work in a box and see the public rarely and even then, only briefly. My apartment is a shambles due to lack of time and motivation and I have a great many dreams sitting dark and deflated. No time, no skill to acheive them.

I'm not typing this all out seeking pity or sympathy. I simply know how frustrating it is when an artist you like vanishes into the ether without a word, or perhaps a few flimsy excuses. I wanted to give you all an honest reason instead of the normal bullshit people dish out

So please- I will get works up, perhaps at a slower, more limping pace than I intended, perhaps rarely until I sort my head out. It might not be what "sells" like SPAM or A is For, but believe me, I haven't abandoned them, I simply lack the humour needed to convey them the way I want for the moment.

<3 Lilly

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